Life is such a crazy thing. I play a game World of Warcraft and I have an acquaintance on the game who lives in Toledo who is just 18 but I figured it would be fun to hang out and drink and have some fun. I really felt kind of stupid by the time 4th of July weekend was over because I had wasted my time picking this kid up who was a completely stereotypical videogame player. All he did was whine the whole time, didn't want to do anything fun, and only wanted to smoke weed. Beyond that it ended up costing me a lot of money not because of him but because I still really need to get used to the fact that you can't drive 100 MPH here in the states. I ended up giving my brother money to take the annoying kid home.
Despite the monstrocity of flab that was in my home this weekend it really was crazy my best friend since like before the whom hung out with me and he smoked weed for the first time and it was hilarious. I was like shocked at how he acted on it. Homeboy was trippin :D. I still dont really like drugs but it is funny to see other people on them. Even beyond all this I kept telling myself I wasn't going to wait till the last minute to do my homework. I really dont think I'll ever learn my lesson.
I finally sat down Sunday at 8 PM to do my schoolwork and then the love of my life calls me up. Okay he just doesn't realize hes the love of my life, but he wanted to go out and oh my screen broke on my cell phone and I normally avoid his calls becuase hes one of those straight guys who is only gay when hes drunk and it really is rude of him to be like that with me. Well but I heard his voice and hes like come on Eric lets go out tonight. So I ended up being out and up till like 4 AM. I woke up at 10 today took a shower brushed my teeth and did my homework. My ethics paper really was fairly simple and my English Declaration of Topic was almost done already.
I did have fun this weekend, but you know in the end I'm really disapointed in myself because I wanted to have more done than what I did. I still struggle to work out on a regular basis. Also I really should have just ignored that guy I like. I don't like it when people say a guy /girl doesn't respect themselves just because they sleep around a lot, but I really do feel that this person is disrespecting me and I completely allow it. After this weekend I get to struggle to get things done that I should have had done, do car work that should have been done, get a new cell phone, and mope over the fact that I'm just smitten over someone who doesn't really care about me the same way I care about him.
Such is life however. I refuse to be depressed over such petty things but just take care of them and breathe in breath out put one foot in front of the other. I'm a grown man who really should be above such crushes and childish things but that doesn't mean I don't have fun or that I'm not human. I still have feelings I just need to not let my emotions get the best of me.
Cheers to Queers and Sexy Women.
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